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Quarantine Shit

Quarantine has been really weird.

The first two weeks were coming down from stress.

The third week it was trying to figure out how to work from home.

I teach P.E. And Health so I’m always up moving around. Now I’m confined to my house trying to email and call students. I’ve created Instagram to stay in touch, I’ve made a Tik Tok to look silly at best, and got messenger to keep up with what’s going on with the school situation.

I got rid of Facebook when I went to flight attendant training. I would get on and read everyone’s “diary” when I was trying to go through this intense training. The news, complaints, and all the negativity gave me really bad anxiety. So I just got rid of it.

I try to block it all out and honestly I’d rather there be some point of cut off. Some point where not everyone can get in touch with you all the time. You have my number you don’t need to reach me on 25 different apps. So realistically it’s been more difficult than I thought it would be. So now I have all these different options to stay in touch with people, but there’s really no cut off.

The fourth week its just trying to fill the day. I sleep till 11-12 to try and waste some of the day. Some days it’s been really hard to get motivated.

Tell me how in the hell people are stay at home parents? Working from home daily? Or just sitting around not working and just getting by?

I am getting irritated, I miss the gym, I miss work routine. I miss my friends. I miss my family.

My thoughts are trying to eat me alive this week. It could be that my period is due on top of it… great.👿🤬

I’m generally a positive person, but here lately I have to confess it’s getting more difficult.

I’m ready to not be confined, not walk on the same trail , not emailing and sitting for hours at a time. I’m ready to be back in somewhat of a routine.

I hope it comes soon. I miss the days we thought were bad.

Thanks for stopping by to read my blog.

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Circles

I’m writing this blog because my mind keeps running in circles. I wonder why it never shuts down. and I feel like I’m constantly trying to think of different ways to live.

By different ways of living I think of jobs. I wonder why I always feel like I’m meant to be doing something else. Is it because I haven’t found that special thing … Or is it the lightbulb hasn’t went off on where I’m at, at this point in my life.

I think of people and it makes me sad when people don’t make effort towards you. Do they outgrow you or do you outgrow them ?

I think of my family and how I wish there were more of us that were closer.

My mind constantly going in circles…

I’m thinking of my wedding reception that’s next weekend . I’m second guessing the catering .. should I have just had a taco bar ?!?? After all I love tacos !🌮 Then again that would have been just one more thing to do the day of….

I think of the wealthy…I work with people who are very well off … And wonder why some of them can’t see how they treat the people around them. I wonder how others are so down to earth. Tonight I had one enteract with me and actually asked in a genuine tone “So how are you doing today?” One of my biggest pet peeves is someone asking how you are doing and not even waiting for a reply… Why bother ? I also can’t stand when you ask someone how they are and they never reply they just seem like they are nibby about your business. Is that normal?!

My mind is running in circles and I should probably go for a walk, but I’m already in bed….

Thanks for reading I should probably get some rest.